I did it. I finally went to the doctors again. 


After my counselling I had in the summer last year, things were better for a while. I was better for a while. Well, I felt it anyway. 


But then things started getting bad again. 


And then I discovered I was pregnant. After the initial shock, I had mainly good days, but a few I felt down.


And then I miscarried.


I was sent totally off the track again. As anyone would. 


But after the initial upset, everything that had bothered me before, started coming back to bother me again. Total meltdown.


I realised I needed help again. 


I broke down as soon as I sat down in her office.


I have more counselling next month.