Yep. I’m broken again. It’s taking me right back to pre-little man times when I had awfully long heavy periods, and it’s bringing back so many hard memories. I know having a miscarriage can mess with your cycles. I was bleeding/spotting pretty much every day from the miscarriage to my first AF with the exception of around 2 weeks, so for around 5 weeks. I expected that. Then AF arrived mid/end of January, and I had a 28 day cycle, which I had never had before! “Great”, I thought, getting back to ‘normal’. Until this cycle. I have now been bleeding …
miscarriage
Counselling – take 3
On Friday I went for another counselling session. For some reason I was nervous again before going in; I think this was because I was seeing a different person to whom I saw last year. This time it was a female, but I had no reason to be nervous as she was lovely and made me feel at ease straight away. We mainly discussed the miscarriage and how I had been feeling since then, as I think it’s what triggered most of the old feelings again. I was surprised that she didn’t know the statistics – that 1 in 4 women will …
Finally!… Post miscarriage first cycle
After my miscarriage I bled for a week and a half. This was expected, and I was glad when it finally stopped, as it was just a constant reminder of what I had lost. Of course I then had to wait for the arrival of my next AF, which the sonographer and nurse told me it could be in the next 4-6 weeks from mc. So I was surprised when on Xmas Eve I started spotting again (thanks Santa!). I thought it was the arrival of AF pending, but nope… I’ve been waiting day after day for a ‘proper’ bleed indicating …
Jealousy
I never imagined I would be in this situation ever again. Being jealous of pregnancies. Miscarriage, now I unfortunately know first hand, is one of those situations, like infertility, where you just cannot control your feelings, and really don’t know how it feels, until it happens to you. Before mine happened, when a friend or a lady on the forum had a miscarriage, I would feel sad for them, and all I could say was ‘I’m sorry’, but I didn’t really know how they felt. But now I do. It’s heart-wrenching, heartbreaking, devastating, soul destroying. Some may say, “it wasn’t even …
Discharged
I went for my follow up scan this morning, after there was still a bit of tissue left from the miscarriage. I’m glad I chose an early appointment as the nurse suggested, as there was only one other person there (also for the EPU I think) and they were obviously running on time so I was seen straight away (though we waiting outside in the cold for 5 minutes as no-one had turned up in reception yet). The nurse called me through and just asked about my bleeding and if I’d had any pain, my bleeding actually stopped last Wednesday/Thursday …