As I blogged about previously, the new counsellor I saw had given me some homework. Last time we decided that I needed to get out more, basically, to take my mind off grieving all of the time (obviously I can still grieve, but it was consuming me) so that’s what I’ve been doing. I also had my diary sheet to fill in for my homework (just like being back at school!). On this I had to write what I did, how I felt (and the % of that feeling), and rate the following on a scale of 1-10 – achievement, closeness …
post natal depression
Counselling – take 3
On Friday I went for another counselling session. For some reason I was nervous again before going in; I think this was because I was seeing a different person to whom I saw last year. This time it was a female, but I had no reason to be nervous as she was lovely and made me feel at ease straight away. We mainly discussed the miscarriage and how I had been feeling since then, as I think it’s what triggered most of the old feelings again. I was surprised that she didn’t know the statistics – that 1 in 4 women will …
Broody & depressed
Lately I’m finding controlling my broodiness really hard. What with One Born Every Minute, seeing cute younger babies photos on facebook, and having just finally caught up on 16 Kids & Counting, it’s going up a notch every few days! I think the fact that I should have been halfway there with my pregnancy too (I would have been 20 weeks today), I’m finding the feeling of being broody really hard. I just want it to go away but I can’t. We should have been seeing our precious little bean again any time now, and it’s really upsetting. I thought …
I did it.
I did it. I finally went to the doctors again. After my counselling I had in the summer last year, things were better for a while. I was better for a while. Well, I felt it anyway. But then things started getting bad again. And then I discovered I was pregnant. After the initial shock, I had mainly good days, but a few I felt down. And then I miscarried. I was sent totally off the track again. As anyone would. But after the initial upset, everything that had bothered me before, started coming back to bother me again. Total …
Counselling – take 2
First of all, I’m so sorry I haven’t been updating regularly the last couple of weeks, it has been hectic with moving, trying to make a dent in the boxes, and decorating the little man’s room to get him in there! Well it looks a bit more lived in now rather than just a junk shop. Anyway, I had another counselling session last month. I had to do the depression questionnaire again and my results were a little better than they were at the previous one, so the tasks he gave me must have helped a little. He asked me …