When my mental health is like it is at the minute, I find paranoia really brings itself to the forefront (social media doesn’t help this, but we’re so dependent on it nowadays – especially for bloggers). Hand in hand with feeling like I’m not good enough and am always doing something wrong, it’s not a great pairing. Today has been a day where I wonder who I really can trust. You see things, hear things, from people you thought were good friends. Banter between people. One of them who you have already lost trust in, anyway. It could be innocent, …
Recipe – Bubblegum Angel Delight cheesecake #AngelDelightMoments
Angel Delight. Such a great memory from childhood. Simple, but great. I think it must have been a staple dessert for many a child since it first appeared in 1967. It’s quick, easy, bubbly, and tasty – so what’s not to love about it?! Never mind enjoying it during childhood – there has been more than once that I’ve eaten it in my adult life too. It’s just one of those desserts that you can never get bored of and want to pass the memories to your children. The newest flavour is Bubblegum, and when it arrived I was thinking …
We’re going back to the start…
You may have seen last week that I had a huge breakdown and have fallen into the big black hole again. Where you just can’t see the future in front of you. Sometimes you don’t want to see the future in front of you. Sounds harsh, but sometimes it’s oh so true – that’s what it does to you. Anyway, I digress. After the breakdown, we saw it was a cry for help and I made a doctors appointment. I knew what I was going for, and that was anti-depressants. I was adamant that I wanted them, and when she asked …
Recipe – Naan bread pizzas
Naan bread pizzas are a new favourite in our house and we now have them at least once a month. The naan acting as the base means it is much softer than a normal pizza, and I actually eat the ‘crust’ (I normally leave it as it’s too crunchy)! I can’t actually remember the last time we had a pizza with a regular dough base. The good thing about these too are they they are just big enough for one person (J also manages a full one!) so there is no arguing over toppings – and they’re mega quick to …
Crash & burn
I was hoping, praying, that this wouldn’t happen again. That I wouldn’t suffer the same fate I did after J was born. I’ve been hiding, trying to fight it myself for weeks now. Nearing breaking point. Today I snapped. I reached it. I don’t know what triggered it, it just happened. From nowhere. I decided that life would be better off without me. My children, my husband, my family. Selfish. I know I’m selfish. But this illness, this horrible, debilitating, illness. Now that, that is even more selfish. It doesn’t care. It can control me. But I couldn’t control it. …