I woke at 2am that morning, Sat bolt upright in bed, I had to rush, jump out, I knew you were going, going forever. The next 4 hours were spent sat, Sobbing, crying, wishing, hoping, That you were ok, while losing you, But I knew you were going, going forever. We were going to check on you that afternoon, The rest of the day passed in slow motion, As I knew you were going, going forever. We didn’t see you; “I’m sorry, I’m not seeing anything”, she said, In that moment we knew for sure you were gone, Gone forever. …
When?
When? Something I started to think about on Tuesday, only one day after my miscarriage. When to try again? Something that must cross the mind of every couple when they lose their precious baby. So, we weren’t actively trying for little bean and it was a bit of shock when we got our BFP as after our journey with little man, we were not in the slightest expecting to catch straight away. But once we had gotten over the shock we were so ecstatic and so looking forward to being parents of two. We were originally planning on waiting until …
Dates
In the 10 short weeks I was pregnant, and that our little bean lived inside me, there have been a couple of dates which are significant and close to each other. The day we went for our first early scan, we received our original dating scan letter through the post. This would have been today, so today is already one of those bad days. We should have originally been seeing our little bean for the first time today, heart beating away. Instead yesterday we had to go and see nothing there, nothing at all. Empty. (Apart from a clot or …
Heaven takes another angel
Our angel. Mummy & Daddy’s little angel. We will never forget you. Today has truly been one of the most heartbreaking days of my life. “Nobody said it was easy”… These words which somebody posted today describe exactly how I am feeling right now: A whisper in the silence, a tear drop on my hand, the pain that builds inside of me seems will remain forever more. Although we never met you, you were so cherished and so loved, please never do forget that, my little unborn one. Only two weeks ago we saw your precious little heartbeat after bleeding …