I was rather excited to receive my first foodie penpals parcel! I opened the package and there were lots of goodies inside, so I couldn’t wait to get them all out and have a look. There was a wide variety of items, each based on each of my preferences which I was happy about. Though I have to admit I have only tried a couple of them so far, but all will be used in due course! The first item I had to try which got me rather excited and looked rather interesting, was the ‘Malt Salt’. It is a …
July 2012
Dread
I dread that I’m never going to be able to enjoy my baby fully. I feel like that has been taken away, and feel like there is no end in sight right now. I dread waking up some days because I find it hard to cope when he’s having a mega grumpy day, because he won’t sleep. Though being a Mummy, coping should come naturally, but it doesn’t seem to happen with me. I dread that I’m never going to get over my guilty feelings and they’ll haunt me for the rest of my life. I dread that I’m never …
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What if?
Recently I’ve been thinking about a lot of “what if’s” surrounding my breastfeeding guilt. This is one of the things that has led to my PND I think. What if I had found a breastfeeding support group before little man’s arrival? I would probably have been armed with all the information I needed to succeed. What if I had more skin to skin time straight after he was born? He was born onto my tummy and we had cuddles, but I was in such a daze from the gas & air, and from them struggling with my bit of retained …
Counselling – take 1
The week before last I went for my counselling session which my doctor recommended me to do. I was extremely nervous as I thought the counsellor (Jamie) would think I was being silly and to tell me to stop being stupid. Obviously that wouldn’t have been the case, but you know… As it was, as soon as I went in I felt really at ease as he was such a nice guy. Though I felt at ease with him, I still really didn’t want to talk about what was going on and my feelings, as I felt silly. Once again …