By now you will probably have seen ‘the announcement’ – if not, you can find it here!
So first things first, how far along am I? Only around 5 weeks.
Why have I revealed it so early? Because as we know, telling people early or not does not effect the outcome of pregnancy. And, if the worst was to happen again, the support received is paramount to coping, and I know I can receive a lot of support from my friends and online community.
Going back to the beginning. After our miscarriage, although our pregnancy was unexpected, we both decided that we really wanted it to happen again; not to replace bean as such but we felt something was now missing. So after my first post miscarriage cycle we started TTC. As we had caught bean as a surprise the first time, I stupidly (especially after everything we had been through to get little man) expected it to happen first time again. It didn’t. And it didn’t. And then it didn’t. And then, well, it did. I must have ovulated very late, so we were very lucky, and I sure know that.
I actually got my (very faint) BFP on day 45 of my cycle which was last Sunday. So hubby had an amazing Father’s Day present! I had a feeling I might be pregnant as I was so tired and kept waking up with awful headaches, which seems to be the norm for me. At the moment I am very lucky yet again that I haven’t had any morning sickness so far, just slight nausea. We also decided to call our little miracle ‘berry’.
How am I feeling? I am ecstatic, over the moon, but at the same time, terrified, nervous; every time I go to the loo I am so paranoid. I’m trying not to get too excited just yet as I have weeks to go before that significant date from my last pregnancy, so I can’t relax about it either, but I’m trying to take it easy. I discussed with my GP about my AD’s and we decided that I didn’t want to risk anything, so I am cutting them down over the next two weeks in order to cut them out completely. Though if I ever feel like I need to, to go back to her.
And the weird pregnancy dreams have started already. On Monday I had a dream that I went to the chip shop and asked for sausage & chips, but instead I was given a full chocolate cream cake on a paper plate, stuck down with a strip of sellotape over it just in case I had an accident and it fell off…
Look out for my weekly updates!