So, once again, I will reflect on the past year, which has been a year of ups & downs. Of course, I expected it to be mainly full of ups; I never expected the downs. I read on my 2011 post that last year made me a stronger person, this year I feel weaker. I want to thank my real and virtual friends for helping me through those hard times. I plan on thanking you individually, but you should know who you are. So here goes.

January was the month I made resolutions (as usual) and didn’t stick to many of them (as usual!). I also celebrated a whole year of blogging, and I can’t believe I’ve been blogging for almost two years. I hope to make my blog grow a little more next year. We also laid my Nan to rest, so it was a bit of a sad end to the month for me; I wish she were able to have met the little man.

February was quite a good month. We had a bump shoot, and I had my baby shower. But then, at the end of the month, I slipped in heavy snow, which was not good when I was heavily pregnant! I put my back out, but it hasn’t been the same since!

And, of course, March was an eventful month with the little guy’s arrival! The best month of the year. Before his arrival, the beginning consisted of hospital visits and long walks!

April was relatively uneventful, mainly settling into life as Mummy. But it also brought the onset of breastfeeding guilt and PND & anxiety to follow… Little man also went to his first family gathering!

May was also relatively uneventful, but it was when I discovered my body had reset itself with a natural O.V. and the return of A.F.!

June was a good month! We went to two weddings, one of which I was a bridesmaid, and I loved! It was great to see one of my oldest friends getting married and to be a special part of it. I also joined a gym with my hubby, but that didn’t last long. We also went to see the Olympic torch. What a fabulous experience! It is one I can show little man when he’s older!

July was a bit of a mixed bag. It brought with it the battle with PND & anxiety – the start of counselling. But I discovered Foodie Penpals and went for a fab weekend away to London with hubby from a comp win earlier in the year!

August was not too bad, I suppose. We moved. And I was also excited about writing a guest blog for Wriggly Rascals!

We had Little Man’s Naming Day in September, where he was spoiled and a very good boy. We had a lovely but tiring day! His odd parents couldn’t make it, as his odd mummy was in labour! Eek!

In October, we had our first family holiday to Scotland, which we loved, and it was terrific finally going as a family after all the years we’ve been going by ourselves. It also brought the arrival of our Goddaughter; we were delighted to be asked! We also unknowingly naturally conceived and then got our B.F.P.

In November, I didn’t blog much as I was pregnant but didn’t want it public yet, and it was the month when I had a bleeding scare and went for an early scan; everything was fine, but the worst was to follow.

And in December, we lost our precious little bean and started a spiral into depression again – the worst month of the year. I can’t wait for a few hours until it ends, and we can start afresh.

And once again, I end with a R.I.P. to our little bean, always in our hearts. x