12 weeks 3 days “bump” (pic)…

…Or do I just look chubby?! I can’t tell the difference to be honest! (Excuse the moo cow PJ bottoms, the only thing that is comfy at the minute!)

I also bought some baby botty fluff yesterday! (I nearly wrote bum fluff but that just sounds, well, odd!) 

BabyBotBums Stars & Moons
BabyBotBums Jungle Animals

Both baby neutral of course for the time being! And with free delivery over £10 and 15% off I couldn’t resist!

12 weeks

Today is the 12 week mark! Again you could say, as I thought I was 12 weeks on Friday! I would have a (lack of) bump pic to add, but I haven’t managed to get dressed today, oops! So maybe tomorrow or Tuesday…

I also had some really odd dreams during my nap today, one of them I had 4 arms?! I was making a mini trifle and typing on the laptop at the same time?! And the other one, well I’m not telling you that as it is quite embarrassing! Also been waking up a couple of times during the last week screaming and in tears as I dreamed I was being attacked by dogs. Not nice.

Other dreams I have had during my pregnancy so far – that a very attractive celebrity chef was the father of baby! That one was a bit of shock! 3 days before my BFP, I dreamed that someone gave us a baby?! And 2 days before, I dreamed I got my BFP! Dreams really do come true (sometimes).

A letter to my LTTTC friends

Hi ladies,

I just want to say, thank you all so much for being there for me these last few weeks, when I know how much it must have been hurting. I know you are incredibly happy for me, but at the same time I know you must be feeling jealous at times, and that is totally understandable. I’ve been there.

At times I feel guilty, that it’s me and not you, as I know you all want this just as much as I did/do. I really wish I could do something to help you, and many of you know that. 

I am trying my best to be sensitive and thoughtful to you all, which is why I let most of you (so sorry if I forgot anyone!) know privately before I announced it to the world. I know it was a shock, it was as much for you as it was for me. Scan and bump photos will be added to here, so you don’t have to look if you don’t want to. 

It’s been a long, hard, 2.5 years for hubby & I, but we got there in the end – “Good things come to those who wait” – I know for a long time I didn’t believe this, no matter what anybody said, sometimes I still think it feels surreal and worrying that something will go wrong, as we’re just not this lucky to be blessed like this! 

I do truly believe though, that one day, may it be this year, next year, a few years, your dream will come true, whether it be naturally, by fertility treatment, or whether you have to go down these long hard roads, and then the even harder one (from the stories of some of the ladies on the forum I’m a member of) of adoption, if those ones do not make your dream come true. At this point I have to take a quote from one of the ladies on the forum who has been through it all –

“Sometimes your original dream doesn’t work out. But the one that replaces it can be even better…”

P.S. To those of you who have not yet read my blog from the beginning, if you do so, it may help you understand why I have been the way I have over the last couple of years, and how to be just that bit more “helpful” and sensitive to anybody you know who is going through the heartbreak that is infertility, or difficulties in trying to conceive. 

Love to you all,

Stacey xx

Scan time!

Well, after such a long wait we finally had our very first scan! For 2 years and 8 months we had been waiting for this moment! Not got much more to say as I’m still so excited! I thought I was 12 weeks today, but I’m actually 11+5, so not too far behind! EDD 11th March 2012!

It was jumping about all over the place so this was the best she got! 😀 

^^^^ THAT’S OUR BABY!! ^^^^

Our gender scan is the 31st October – I wonder if we’ll be having a little witch or a little wizard!

Booking in with the midwife

Well we had our booking in appt. with the midwife last Wednesday, it went quite well! 

Got there, went through medical/family history, last AF etc., gave us our EDD which is the 10th March – I had it as 9th March, so not too far off, though it will probably change again at our 12 week scan! Then had to do pee sample, took lots of blood from me (ouch!), gave me lots of reading material! Then I had to get my height measured and weighed, to work out my BMI. Well, it turns out my BMI is just on the borderline (BMI 30) to be under consultant led care. So she is referring us back to our FC consultant. Quite happy about this actually as he knows our history etc., though he’ll probably have to be refreshed when we see him! She said though, this means I will more than likely be given extra growth scans, and will be tested for diabetes around 28 weeks. Extra care is good.

Oh, and our scan is on Friday the 26th, so less than 3 weeks now! So excited to see our baby!