19 weeks (and an emotional wreck)

Yep, 19 weeks already! Still feels like only yesterday when I got my BFP! We’re nearly half way there, and I still can’t believe it. Though we have to wait an extra week to see our baby, at 21+1, which kinda sucks, but will make it all the more special. Scan is 2 weeks today on the 31st, it’s an early morning one, which means I’ll be peeing all day afterwards! But we’ll finally know the gender of our precious baby (well, if he/she lets us!). 

Yesterday I was a bit of an emotional wreck if I’m honest. Firstly, I think I’m back at that point from the first trimester when I am exhausted, yawning, and want to go back to bed as soon as I wake up – baby must be growing a lot. But, this also means that I’m mardy and irritable to go with it! Poor hubby! It didn’t help yesterday that I had a headache that just wouldn’t go away. (Nope, not the husband this time!).


I was cooking dinner, and that’s when it all started… I threw an absolute wobbler because my chicken wasn’t cooked properly, I started shouting at hubby, and partly blamed him (not his fault at all, he was busy upstairs!), and then I was in floods of tears for the next 20 minutes! I eventually calmed down whilst hubby sorted everything out, well by then after the crying fit I was even more shattered. 


Dinner eaten, couple of hours after I decided I wanted chocolate (oops!)… I remembered I had some mini eggs which I bought when they were selling them off after Easter. Well, I thought I did… They were at the top of the cupboard, which I can’t reach, so asked hubby to find them. He spent 5 minutes looking for them, telling me they weren’t there, me insisting they were, and then, he finally owned up, he’d eaten them! Cue another crying  and shouting session. Oh dear, poor hubby again! 


For the third time, was at bedtime! As tired as I was, I just couldn’t get settled and sleep. Not helped by hubby’s snoring and loud breathing, every single night it happens, so annoying. So then I threw another wobbler at him and ventured downstairs to read! I eventually went back upstairs, snuggled in bed and read a little more, no idea what time I got to sleep in the end…

Wave Of Light – Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day (sensitive)

Today (October 15th) is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. A day to remember those who have lost babies before term, at birth, or in infancy, and the little angels flying high in the sky. 


Before we started out TTC, if I’m honest, I wasn’t really that aware of those around me who had lost babies, maybe it’s because it’s a taboo subject which people don’t talk about very often. It was only when I started posting in the conception & fertility board of the forum I was a member of at the time, that it made me realise it was something that happens everyday, to people from all walks of life. It is totally heartbreaking for the people involved, and even if you don’t know them personally and only speak to them virtually, it still affects you so much when you hear their stories. 


Of course we don’t need a ‘special day’ to remember, we should remember and think about them every day, but today is the day when there will be a Wave Of Light across the world. At 7pm GMT I will be lighting my candles to remember and support. 






Down’s syndrome screening tests

Just before we went on holiday we received a letter with the results of our Down’s syndrome screening test – 1:15,000 – meaning we don’t need to have any further tests! This is obviously good news for us (not that we wouldn’t love our baby just as much if he/she was born with Down’s…), but for some parents it may not be such good news, or hard to deal with.


We actually had to just have a blood test, as at our 12 week scan Baby G wouldn’t stay still and wasn’t in the right position for the sonographer to take measurements! 


The nuchal translucency (NT) scan is a straightforward test to assess whether your baby is likely to have Down’s syndrome, it isn’t a diagnostic test. The NT scan is carried out by taking your baby’s neck fluid measurements, usually at your 12 week scan. It is best carried out between 11 weeks and 13 weeks & 6 days of pregnancy. If your results come back as high risk then you can decide whether you wish to have a diagnostic test carried out. A diagnostic test such as chorionic villus sampling (CVS) or an amniocentesis can give a definite diagnosis, but it also carries a small risk of miscarriage.


It is worth noting that it is not a requirement for you to have the NT scan, it is a personal decision. Likewise, once your NT results are back, if they are high risk, you do not have to have a diagnostic test.


You can find more information on Down’s syndrome screening tests here and here.

Sickness in pregnancy

There was a comment I came across the other day on that ol’ place called Facebook. There were 2 or 3 people discussing sickness in pregnancy, and I saw something that quite riled me if I’m honest. This comment basically said that pregnancies in which the woman had/has sickness, all was well, and went well, whereas pregnancies where the woman felt/feels fine, things didn’t/don’t go so well in. (Though they did refer to it as an old wives tale, the person in question probably didn’t mean to offend, but I did think it was quite insensitive even saying this, seeing as a lot of people tend to worry all the way through their pregnancies, like me for instance! Or maybe I’m just too sensitive regarding babies and pregnancy, who knows? Maybe it’s also because I know quite a few people “in real life” and from the forum I am a member of, who have had unsuccessful pregnancies and/or premature babies).


So then of course this has got me worrying. (And also thinking about other peoples experiences). I haven’t really had any sickness during my pregnancy, only really very slight nausea every so often in the first trimester which was cured with eating. So that means that something is going to go wrong at some stage or my baby is going to be born unhealthy?! Add to this the fact I had bleeding around 14 weeks, I know this is quite normal in early pregnancy, but I am a self confessed worrier and have been worrying ever since that something is going to go wrong. 


So, did you have sickness or not in your pregnancy? And did everything go well or were there complications? 

18 weeks… and a bump (pic)

Sorry I have neglected you all since last Saturday, was rather busy all weekend as we went on holiday on Monday, and didn’t get back until Friday! So I never posted a 17 week update last Sunday either…

I haven’t really that much to report actually, the last couple of weeks have been quite uneventful regarding Baby G! Bump has grown a little but can’t really see that much difference since the last photo, though for a few days it did seem to be noticeably expanding overnight! 



During our holiday the ‘Funstars’ did a show called ‘Never Forget’, in which they sang We’ll Meet Again by Vera Lynn – well, I think baby must like this song as he/she was doing somersaults in my tummy which was pretty amazing! 


We loved our holiday, we will definitely be taking baby back next year if we can afford it! We didn’t want to leave and wished we could have stayed longer! 

Hubby & I after our 400ft climb to the top of a waterfall!  (Squinty as the sun was just appearing!)
Me on my quarter century birthday with my ‘Soba Mojito’ mocktail!