A letter to my LTTTC friends

Hi ladies,


I just want to say, thank you all so much for being there for me these last few weeks, when I know how much it must have been hurting. I know you are incredibly happy for me, but at the same time I know you must be feeling jealous at times, and that is totally understandable. I’ve been there.

At times I feel guilty, that it’s me and not you, as I know you all want this just as much as I did/do. I really wish I could do something to help you, and many of you know that. 

I am trying my best to be sensitive and thoughtful to you all, which is why I let most of you (so sorry if I forgot anyone!) know privately before I announced it to the world. I know it was a shock, it was as much for you as it was for me. Scan and bump photos will be added to here, so you don’t have to look if you don’t want to. 

It’s been a long, hard, 2.5 years for hubby & I, but we got there in the end – “Good things come to those who wait” – I know for a long time I didn’t believe this, no matter what anybody said, sometimes I still think it feels surreal and worrying that something will go wrong, as we’re just not this lucky to be blessed like this! 

I do truly believe though, that one day, may it be this year, next year, a few years, your dream will come true, whether it be naturally, by fertility treatment, or whether you have to go down these long hard roads, and then the even harder one (from the stories of some of the ladies on the forum I’m a member of) of adoption, if those ones do not make your dream come true. At this point I have to take a quote from one of the ladies on the forum who has been through it all –

“Sometimes your original dream doesn’t work out. But the one that replaces it can be even better…”

P.S. To those of you who have not yet read my blog from the beginning, if you do so, it may help you understand why I have been the way I have over the last couple of years, and how to be just that bit more “helpful” and sensitive to anybody you know who is going through the heartbreak that is infertility, or difficulties in trying to conceive. 

Love to you all,

Stacey xx

Scan time!

Well, after such a long wait we finally had our very first scan! For 2 years and 8 months we had been waiting for this moment! Not got much more to say as I’m still so excited! I thought I was 12 weeks today, but I’m actually 11+5, so not too far behind! EDD 11th March 2012!


It was jumping about all over the place so this was the best she got! 😀 

 
^^^^ THAT’S OUR BABY!! ^^^^

Our gender scan is the 31st October – I wonder if we’ll be having a little witch or a little wizard!


Booking in with the midwife

Well we had our booking in appt. with the midwife last Wednesday, it went quite well! 


Got there, went through medical/family history, last AF etc., gave us our EDD which is the 10th March – I had it as 9th March, so not too far off, though it will probably change again at our 12 week scan! Then had to do pee sample, took lots of blood from me (ouch!), gave me lots of reading material! Then I had to get my height measured and weighed, to work out my BMI. Well, it turns out my BMI is just on the borderline (BMI 30) to be under consultant led care. So she is referring us back to our FC consultant. Quite happy about this actually as he knows our history etc., though he’ll probably have to be refreshed when we see him! She said though, this means I will more than likely be given extra growth scans, and will be tested for diabetes around 28 weeks. Extra care is good.


Oh, and our scan is on Friday the 26th, so less than 3 weeks now! So excited to see our baby!

Telling the parents

Last week we decided to tell the parents! We were going to do it on Thursday as that was my Mum’s birthday, but she was out all day and away for the night so we left it until Friday.


First we went to the in-laws while we waited for my Mum & Step-Dad to get home. MIL at first didn’t believe us – “Are you joking with me?” “Why would we joke about something like that?!” And then she kind of looked shocked and then started punching the air and chanting “I’m gonna be a Granny!” which was quite funny (it’s her first grandchild)! Then she told FIL (they sit in seperate rooms as he is deaf and wears headphones to listen to the TV), his reaction was “Oh right, well done” and then put his headphones back on! But when we left MIL tells us he was looking at cots 😉


So then we ventured to my Mum & Step-Dad’s, to give her her birthday present and card. I broke it to her by saying “We’ve also got you something else but can’t give it to you until next year…” She couldn’t figure it out so I said “You’re gonna be a Granny again!” (This is her 2nd grandchild but she missed out with my niece as we were stopped seeing her 2 or 3 months after she was born) They were both shocked too, and she even gave me a hug which never happens! lol


On the Sunday we went to tell BIL. Hubby broke it to him. It went something like this. BIL – “so what do ya know?” Hubby – “You’re gonna be an Uncle!” (Which I was shocked at as he was worrying how he was going to tell him, but I suppose that was the perfect opportunity!) He gave us his congrats.


We’re not making a point of telling my brother until later on as there is a bit of history between us, so he can wait. My Dad is a difficult one, of course I want to tell him but I rarely speak to him or see him, which I really know I should do, but it works both ways doesn’t it? We’re going to wait until we’ve had our scan and then go round and say we have something for him. I hope he takes it well. 

Blood results

Today I went for my blood results to confirm my pregnancy… Well I am definitely pregnant! My GP also said that my hCG levels were exceptionally high for this stage of pregnancy, meaning that either the clomid has an effect on the levels, or there is more than one in there, eek…


We have our FC appt. on Tuesday anyway, so I will ask the consultant! The GP also said that he will probably discharge us as we don’t really need to attend any more.


And my booking in appt. with the midwife is on the 3rd August, I will be about 8.5 weeks then! Now things are steaming ahead I’m hoping it goes quick as I’m quite impatient!


It’s so hard keeping it quiet on Facebook too!