CD5, clomid round 1, day 4

Today has been OK-ish… I felt a bit sick this morning but that could have been the fact I had a job interview and was slightly nervous, so not blaming that one wholly on the clomid!


Apart from that I’ve had a headache again, and considering one of the side effects is heavy periods, mine has gotten much lighter, much earlier than usual, so that’s odd! Not that I’m complaining as they are usually horrendous!


Just one day of clomid left, and then getting down to the BD’ing! 

CD4, clomid round 1, day 3

Today has not been the best of days (see previous post), but this clomid is making it a whole lot worse, argh! 


Apart from waking up cheery, I have been in a rotten mood all day and keep snapping at hubby, even been throwing things around the kitchen… :/


Just trying to focus on the end result and it’s all for a good cause…


3 days left of this round 1, I really hope it works and makes me OV, even if we don’t catch this month (although that would be the best outcome) at least we know something works.

And another one bites the dust…

Yep, another pregnancy announcement. I had a really funny feeling the person was though, so it wasn’t SO much of a shock, but still. I am trying to be happy, well, I am happy for them, but I just wish it was my turn already. 


I’ve lost count of how many people have announced pregnancies in the 26 months we’ve been trying, I don’t really want to count though, it’s just too depressing. I was feeling quite chirpy today, but now I’ve kind of gone downhill again, a little. So glad I’ve exercised already otherwise I just know I wouldn’t want to. The slightest little thing like this just makes me want to sit on the sofa and cry and feel sorry for myself, it is so so hard to pick yourself up again and carry on, but I’m trying, I really am. Now just excuse me while I go away and cry…


(I did say congratulations though, that’s a big step for me if you have read my previous blogs…)

CD2, clomid round 1, day 1

So after AF messing me about and not knowing whether it was the witch visiting or just spotting for days on end, I got a definite confirmation of her visit yesterday! Took me by surprise as usual! 


Patiently awaited CD2, and have taken my first tablet of clomid 50mg round 1 this evening! Waiting for any side effects to kick in, will report back later if I get any! Usually I’m lucky with side effects but we will see!


Mainly mood swings tonight, no other side effects really. 

Please can I start my clomid yet??…

Right now I am awaiting my first ‘proper’ CD1 of AF, so that I can begin taking my 1st round of clomid on CD2. Recently I have had sore (.)(.), so I guessed that was a sign AF was on its way. Although a lot earlier than it should be according to fertility friend, but hey, I’m not complaining! One of the few times I’ve ever actually wished for the witch to hurry up and grace me with her presence! 


Well yesterday when I woke up and ventured to the loo, I thought she had arrived. Well, it seemed like AF at first, but throughout the day there was hardly anything else, so just spotting I guess. (Although I do usually get a couple of days spotting before proper AF) So I’m doing the checking thing again today, although so far it’s just turning out like yesterday! Believe me, I will definitely know when it’s the first proper day as it’s horrendous! 


Although I’m not looking forward to the mood swings and other symptoms I’ve heard about, I just want to take that first tablet! Fingers crossed it’s soon!

Infertility Month

I came across this on another blog I am following. I don’t know if it is actually Infertility Month or not, but I think the message is clear enough anyway.


Infertility is a heart-wrenching, faith-questioning, relationship-testing, life-altering experience. April is Infertility Awareness Month. Whether a friend, a family member, a colleague or yourself has fought through this difficult fate that MILLIONS of women are fighting day in and day out. Post this as your status if you or someone you know has struggled at a chance to be a parent.

Mixed emotions

Today I have been feeling a mixture of emotions. I woke up happy, cheery, not a care in the world. And then the next minute I wanted to cry. This has been on & off all day, just when I read or come across something upsetting to me. Especially when I read one of my LTTTC virtual friends blogs. 


She was writing about the forum we are both on, more so the C&F forum. About how there are so many people TTC their 2nd, 3rd, 4th, in the time she’s been trying. About how she notices her other LTTTC friends kind of hide away wondering if they feel the same as she does. Well I want you to know, as I was reading it, it could have been me writing it. I feel exactly the same. Which is why I am rarely on there, probably 2 or 3 days a week, and then only to see if there is anything new to catch up on, or if I have any news to share. It’s just too depressing. If you ever read this I want you to know you aren’t the only one feeling that way, and I just want to send out to you a HUGE hug.

I catch up with most of my LTTTC’ers/’infertiles’ on Facebook anyway. But even that’s depressing in the same way sometimes. 

Successful FC update

It was another long wait… 1.5 hours… but it was actually worth it this time! 

We actually saw the consultant this time! As soon as I walked in the room and saw him I was nervous! He’s scary… He asked what we’d been told about our tests (ultrasound, HSG, bloods, SA’s), and asked about my cycles, symptoms etc. So I told him, and then he basically relayed it back to us and told me I don’t OV, which I know already… And then he said he would like to put me on medication (clomid) but I need to lose weight first… Argh, I nearly burst out crying cos I thought he wasn’t going to give us any! I told him I’ve already lost 45 lbs, and he kept saying I need to lose weight, I said ‘Yes’, he said ‘Yes isn’t good enough’ – my GP and my friend were right, he is scary (and strict)! Even hubby was intimidated! Although he said he is strict but he gets results! So I’ll just put up with it!

Anyway, he said he will put his trust in me and give me clomid and we have to go back in two months (if it hasn’t worked by then), but if I haven’t lost any… Well, then I’m sure he’ll shout at me!

So I have two rounds of 50mg (he will give us up to 9 months worth). I have to wait until AF arrives and then take it on days 2-6, BD from day 10 onwards, but tbh I think we’ll be at it like rabbits, have waited long enough already!… He said if AF doesn’t arrive around/after CD28 then to take a test…

So now I’m nervous, but excited at the same time as we are actually getting somewhere after 2 and a bit years!

FC update – What a waste of time

So we went for our next appointment on Tuesday, to find out the results of my HSG and basically see what step to take next.


Well what a waste of time that was! We were in there all of 3 minutes, after a 45 minute wait anyway as they were running late. And yet again it was a different doctor we saw – 3 visits so far, 3 different doctors. Just wondering if we’ll ever actually meet the man himself! Anyway, the doctor told us that my HSG was fine, tubes are clear – that’s a good thing to come out of the visit I suppose, no more worrying about that. But the consultant (Mr Odukoya) wasn’t actually there today, so she couldn’t tell us what was going to happen next. WHAT?! You have to be kidding me, right? After the palava we’ve had getting this far! (Not that she was to know, but that’s what I was thinking) I don’t understand why they can’t just write in the notes what to do next, so the person seeing you knows? I thought that’s what they did, obviously thought wrong…


Not to worry though, only got to wait another week! Sigh. Luckily she rang through and managed to make us an appointment for next Tuesday instead (after asking if that was OK, to which I replied along the lines of “Well it will have to be, wont’t it?!”). Hopefully 4th time lucky, hey?!