Recipe – Bubblegum Angel Delight cheesecake #AngelDelightMoments

Angel Delight. Such a great memory from childhood. Simple, but great. I think it must have been a staple dessert for many a child since it first appeared in 1967. It’s quick, easy, bubbly, and tasty – so what’s not to love about it?!

Never mind enjoying it during childhood – there has been more than once that I’ve eaten it in my adult life too. It’s just one of those desserts that you can never get bored of and want to pass the memories to your children.

The newest Angel Delight flavour is Bubblegum, and when it arrived I was thinking what I could do with it rather than the classic dessert or a milkshake as it also suggests on the packet. How about… Angel Delight cheesecake?! This one also incorporates another childhood favourite of mine – Rainbow Drops! It only takes a short time to make and you may think the cream cheese would take away from the Bubblegum flavour but it really doesn’t. Of course I also had to try it before adding the cream cheese, and it really does taste bubblegummy – it is delicious on its own!

Ingredients (serves 4)

  • 8 digestive biscuits, crushed
  • 40 g butter, melted
  • 4 packets Rainbow Drops
  • 1/2 pint milk
  • 1 pack Bubblegum flavour Angel Delight
  • 200 g cream cheese
  • Crush the biscuits and then mix in the melted butter. Spoon and press into dessert bowls.
  • Sprinkle a layer of Rainbow Drops over the biscuit base, leaving a few aside for topping.
  • Make up the Angel Delight according to the instructions on the packet.
  • Fold in the cream cheese before the Angel Delight starts to set.
  • Spoon mixture over the Rainbow Drops.
  • Sprinkle the remaining Rainbow Drops over the top.
  • Leave to set in the fridge for an hour or so.
  • Enjoy!

This post is an entry for #AngelDelightMoments Linky Challenge.

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We’re going back to the start…

You may have seen last week that I had a huge breakdown and have fallen into the big black hole again.

Where you just can’t see the future in front of you. Sometimes you don’t want to see the future in front of you. Sounds harsh, but sometimes it’s oh so true – that’s what it does to you.

Anyway, I digress.

After the breakdown, we saw it was a cry for help and I made a doctors appointment. I knew what I was going for, and that was anti-depressants. I was adamant that I wanted them, and when she asked what I was there for, that was the first thing I said at the same time as bursting into tears. It was inevitable.

I was in there for ages. So many questions – just get on with it already and give me them. Please! She could see that I just wanted a prescription and to get out but it was kind of like background noise to me – I was zoning out.

I had to do the depression questionnaire again. I got a score of 19 which is classed as ‘moderately severe’. I had told her that I wanted to kill myself. But she didn’t think I needed AD’s. Counselling would do the job. (As well as other options to work through, e.g. getting out a bit more – easier said than done with sky high anxiety too).

I was jittery. I had counselling before and it did help, for a while. But I still had to go on AD’s afterwards. So I didn’t want to go through the same routine again. Easy option? Maybe. But right now, I will do anything.

She could tell I wanted them. Needed them? In the end she asked what I’d rather do. Well obviously, I said AD’s and I would try counselling as well too, alongside the other suggestions. So she gave me a prescription and she also gave me the number of the crisis team, just in case I ever feel like doing something like *that* again. I have to go back in a couple of weeks for a review. Obviously I’m not sure where I’ll be at right then.

I hate this.

I hate this, so much.

Project 365 – Week 44 (days 299 – 305)

October 26th / Day 299
The mess and destruction of today (well, before 9am anyway). That’s not the worst it gets either!

October 27th / Day 300
Lazy photo day so bedtime reading of a book for review.

October 28th / Day 301
Another delivery for N’s bonfire/rainbow themed Naming Day.
October 29th / Day 302
N has had a cold for a while now, today he had a really bad cough and wouldn’t let me put him down so whilst J was at nursery it was snuggles in bed whilst I blogged on my phone!

October 30th / Day 303
Sneak peek of the delivery of another review item from Ozeri.

October 31st / Day 304
Recycling J’s pumpkin Halloween onesie before we get rid of it (sob).

November 1st / Day 305
Can’t beat free tea! Think I applied for these as a freebie a while ago, but wasn’t expecting this much!

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Recipe – Naan bread pizzas

Naan bread pizzas are a new favourite in our house and we now have them at least once a month. The naan acting as the base means it is much softer than a normal pizza, and I actually eat the ‘crust’ (I normally leave it as it’s too crunchy)! I can’t actually remember the last time we had a pizza with a regular dough base. The good thing about these too are they they are just big enough for one person (J also manages a full one!) so there is no arguing over toppings – and they’re mega quick to make!

(no set quantities – just use as much as you like. The following are the toppings we mostly use)

  • plain naan breads
  • tomato puree/barbecue sauce
  • cheese, grated
  • ham, sliced
  • sweetcorn
  • mushrooms, sliced
  • onions, sliced
  • cooked sausage, sliced
  • garlic butter (for a garlic bread naan – just mix garlic powder and mixed herbs with some butter)

  • Preheat oven to gas 6/400F/200C.
  • Place naan breads on pizza trays.
  • Spread naan breads with tomato puree/barbecue sauce/garlic butter.
  • Sprinkle cheese on top.
  • Top with ham/sausage/mushrooms/onion/sweetcorn/etc.
  • Sprinkle a little more cheese on top.
  • Bake for 10-15 minutes until cheese is bubbling and naan breads are golden.
  • Enjoy!

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Crash & burn

I was hoping, praying, that this wouldn’t happen again.

That I wouldn’t suffer the same fate I did after J was born.

I’ve been hiding, trying to fight it myself for weeks now.

Nearing breaking point.

Today I snapped.

I reached it.

I don’t know what triggered it, it just happened.

From nowhere.

I decided that life would be better off without me.

My children, my husband, my family.

Selfish. I know I’m selfish.

But this illness, this horrible, debilitating, illness. Now that, that is even more selfish.

It doesn’t care.

It can control me.

But I couldn’t control it.

I care. I care about my family.

They care about me.

But sometimes, I think they won’t.

I am selfish for not caring about what happens to me.

And it makes me sad.

I looked at my children, and felt physical pain. Sadness.

My husband had to come home from work.

I slept.

I woke.

I didn’t want to.

I wanted the pain to just go away.

Emotional pain, that hurts just as much as physical pain.

It was a cry for help.

Which I should have seeked sooner, rather than fighting.

I can only be strong for so long.

I’m getting help.

With help, I will fight.

You will not beat me.

I will win.