TWW

Well, it seems I’ve been neglecting this recently! Haven’t posted since I was taking my clomid…


I haven’t much to report anyway, except to say ‘So this is what a TWW feels like?!’, after never having an ‘official’ one in the 28 months we’ve been TTC. I’ve been baking a lot, and this has been taking my mind off of it, although it still seems to be dragging! CD28 is on Saturday, so that’s the big day, seeing whether AF turns up on Sunday, if not I have to test, eek…


A few more people have announced BFP’s and had their babies, have mainly been happy and congratulatory, but obviously still been emotional at times.


One last thing, just after we came out of the hospital after my CD21 OV blood test, we saw the BFP numberplate! Not getting my hopes up though as I’ve seen it before…

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CD6, clomid round 1, day 5

Yesterday was the final clomid of round 1, now I just have to await the next couple of weeks with impatience and see if it has worked… I think this is going to be worse than ever before, at least before I knew I wasn’t OV’ing anyway and no chance of me getting pg!


Have to BD from days 10-20, and go for bloods on days 21 & 28.


Fingers crossed…

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CD5, clomid round 1, day 4

Today has been OK-ish… I felt a bit sick this morning but that could have been the fact I had a job interview and was slightly nervous, so not blaming that one wholly on the clomid!


Apart from that I’ve had a headache again, and considering one of the side effects is heavy periods, mine has gotten much lighter, much earlier than usual, so that’s odd! Not that I’m complaining as they are usually horrendous!


Just one day of clomid left, and then getting down to the BD’ing! 

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CD4, clomid round 1, day 3

Today has not been the best of days (see previous post), but this clomid is making it a whole lot worse, argh! 


Apart from waking up cheery, I have been in a rotten mood all day and keep snapping at hubby, even been throwing things around the kitchen… :/


Just trying to focus on the end result and it’s all for a good cause…


3 days left of this round 1, I really hope it works and makes me OV, even if we don’t catch this month (although that would be the best outcome) at least we know something works.

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And another one bites the dust…

Yep, another pregnancy announcement. I had a really funny feeling the person was though, so it wasn’t SO much of a shock, but still. I am trying to be happy, well, I am happy for them, but I just wish it was my turn already. 


I’ve lost count of how many people have announced pregnancies in the 26 months we’ve been trying, I don’t really want to count though, it’s just too depressing. I was feeling quite chirpy today, but now I’ve kind of gone downhill again, a little. So glad I’ve exercised already otherwise I just know I wouldn’t want to. The slightest little thing like this just makes me want to sit on the sofa and cry and feel sorry for myself, it is so so hard to pick yourself up again and carry on, but I’m trying, I really am. Now just excuse me while I go away and cry…


(I did say congratulations though, that’s a big step for me if you have read my previous blogs…)

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CD2, clomid round 1, day 1

So after AF messing me about and not knowing whether it was the witch visiting or just spotting for days on end, I got a definite confirmation of her visit yesterday! Took me by surprise as usual! 


Patiently awaited CD2, and have taken my first tablet of clomid 50mg round 1 this evening! Waiting for any side effects to kick in, will report back later if I get any! Usually I’m lucky with side effects but we will see!


Mainly mood swings tonight, no other side effects really. 
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Please can I start my clomid yet??…

Right now I am awaiting my first ‘proper’ CD1 of AF, so that I can begin taking my 1st round of clomid on CD2. Recently I have had sore (.)(.), so I guessed that was a sign AF was on its way. Although a lot earlier than it should be according to fertility friend, but hey, I’m not complaining! One of the few times I’ve ever actually wished for the witch to hurry up and grace me with her presence! 


Well yesterday when I woke up and ventured to the loo, I thought she had arrived. Well, it seemed like AF at first, but throughout the day there was hardly anything else, so just spotting I guess. (Although I do usually get a couple of days spotting before proper AF) So I’m doing the checking thing again today, although so far it’s just turning out like yesterday! Believe me, I will definitely know when it’s the first proper day as it’s horrendous! 


Although I’m not looking forward to the mood swings and other symptoms I’ve heard about, I just want to take that first tablet! Fingers crossed it’s soon!

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Infertility Month

I came across this on another blog I am following. I don’t know if it is actually Infertility Month or not, but I think the message is clear enough anyway.


Infertility is a heart-wrenching, faith-questioning, relationship-testing, life-altering experience. April is Infertility Awareness Month. Whether a friend, a family member, a colleague or yourself has fought through this difficult fate that MILLIONS of women are fighting day in and day out. Post this as your status if you or someone you know has struggled at a chance to be a parent.
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Mixed emotions

Today I have been feeling a mixture of emotions. I woke up happy, cheery, not a care in the world. And then the next minute I wanted to cry. This has been on & off all day, just when I read or come across something upsetting to me. Especially when I read one of my LTTTC virtual friends blogs. 


She was writing about the forum we are both on, more so the C&F forum. About how there are so many people TTC their 2nd, 3rd, 4th, in the time she’s been trying. About how she notices her other LTTTC friends kind of hide away wondering if they feel the same as she does. Well I want you to know, as I was reading it, it could have been me writing it. I feel exactly the same. Which is why I am rarely on there, probably 2 or 3 days a week, and then only to see if there is anything new to catch up on, or if I have any news to share. It’s just too depressing. If you ever read this I want you to know you aren’t the only one feeling that way, and I just want to send out to you a HUGE hug.

I catch up with most of my LTTTC’ers/’infertiles’ on Facebook anyway. But even that’s depressing in the same way sometimes. 
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